i should start a new life now.

since i am 100% purely single now,
i should forget everything that happened in the last relationship,
and start a new life.

but somehow,
i just feel like my next relationship is coming soon;
i dont know y.
i just feel like he is somewhere there, very close,
but i dont know who it's gonna be...
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i think everyone should understand me,
cuz this is my 1st time in my entire life breaking-up with some one,
so i need time,
i need some time to get the memories out of my head,
i need some time to forget him, [or them]
i need some time to relax,
i need some time to face myself.

even though i dont know how long I need,
even though i dont know i can ever forget him or not,
but there is one thing i am sure abt:
wat i did was right,
and i should start a new life..............

someday.

it ended..

well, today, finally we ended our relationships.
the guy who's family name begins with a H is not my bf anymore.
ALSO the "park" guy.
I dont wanna say their name again.
it makes me .... feel weird.
i was typing the words "let's break up" with....tears,
it wasn't a good experience, especially when u have to say it to 2 guys,
it was HORRIBLE.
but i knew it was something i had to face, something that will come one day.
and, now, guess wat?- i hav a FEVER-40.1 degree.
i know why i hav a fever, it's becuz of him.

before, i thought i dont love him anymore,
but just after we breakup, i realized i felt so EMPTY.
he said he doesn't mind that i cheated on him or anything,
but i was SO determined and COLD-HEARTED.

the reason y i finally have the courage to do that,
is becuz one of my best friend told me,
when u love someone, you would sacrifice for him,
and let him be happy.
and i can finally face my real feelings.

i break up with him, becuz i want him to be happy,
even though i break up with him,
i still love him....

when u realize some one that used to belongs to u, dosen't belongs to you anymore,
u will definately feel like crying.--> trust me!!!

i dont know y, when i type all this stuff,
my tears just came out for no reason,
and i can not stop it.

anyway,
i wish u happy,
and forgive me that i had to do so.

14.1.09 r they trustworthy?!

[I\'ve been living with a shadow overhead
I\'ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I\'ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can\'t seem to move on]

this is part of the lyrics which describes exactly wat I feel .

from wat happened to my 2 best friends,
i seriously wonder r boys trust-worty?

i believe all the girls wants a wonderful relationship, and trust that guy 100%,
but is that wat we should do?

and if we finally realize it we were wrong,
is it too late to regret??

why does girls have to suffer the most after breaking-up?
is spending time with tears the only way to feel better?

--------- i feel so powerless when i heard the story from them,
i really wanna help them to get out of this,
but i can not do anything...

breaking-up with someone will hurt for a while,
but the only way to get out of this,
is to actually realize what love really is, which is to ......sacrifised.

umm..my first ENGLISH blog

to be honest, this blog is more like a place where I can express my feelings and record my life.
umm... it will include some of my secrets like my crushs and my 2 complicated relationships etc.
BUT, IF one day i like someone in the school, then i will write it in chinese. 嘻嘻:P