it just broke

umm..i havn blog fr soo long,,
but somehow im having this problem with my friends now.
they r not that serious,
but they r annoying me.

i hav some best friends in qatar,,
and some of them (most of them) r in school,
and the rest are out side of school.
im usually very carefull abt our relationships,
im scared to hurt them or anything..
and i always tell them stuff,
nd treat them as best as i can.

but some how , it just broke.
some of my friendship just broke.

we were fighting abt STUPID stuff that dznt even make sense.
it was so fuckin stupid.

they said so many bad things,
and told me many things that i will never imagine abt.
but it was the thing that hurt me more than anything else.

i trusted them. i told them everything.
i mean, i knew them fr 4 years,
and i was wrong.

it made me scared,
scared to lose my other friends.
i dunno wat i dd wrong.
i rele dont. y ds this hav 2 happen on me??!!!

so i had this convo with saher,,
i told her abt how scared i am right now to lose any of u.
like saher, nisa, siti, rawan and all the others.

this made me feel so weak, so little, and so useless.
it made my life hopeless.